Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I’m leaving
(Chorus)
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone
You know we’ve been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don’t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in
[Chorus]
Sometimes it feels like we’ve run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up
When the wires cross in my brain
You’ll start my heart again
When I come along
So im back from my lil air wings very own “outfield” program.
Survived, but came back with losta mosquitoe bites, blisters, rashes, and tons of lil red spots on my palms and feet(which my familys presuming its an allegic reaction of some sort)
They want me to see the MO, but, i can foresee myself not complying to their instrutions.
I dun like visiting the Medic, cause i dun even wanna put myself at the risk of getting kicked outta course.
But anyway, i enjoyed the high elements, been some time since i actually did something like that.
Not so much of the navgiation, map, compass games, esp so considering i have navigation exercise coming week in the jungle.
We walked a total of roughly 16km and paddled(aka canoed with some open top canoes) apx 18km around ubin and through some swamp.
Apparently the paddling part just encouraged the gernal public to not take up canoeing.
cause half the ppl died halfway thru out.
But lucky me for my experience.
Sometimes, looking back, i really wondered hw did i even managed to pull 26kms off at a competitive level.
Rowing pass ubin brought back losta memories, the corners, the turns, the waves on the day i got my first gold.
I’m not sure if i’ll ever put myself thru another experience like that again, but im glad that i did it at least once in my life.
Memorable.
I miss canoeing.
I miss kick boxing.
I wished i had the time/discipline/energy/fitness to do it all again every weekends.
But more often than not, i find myself just staying home, lazing around and wasting my weekends.
I need 48hrs a day on weekends.
I need to be able to drive and/or be sent to places so i wont dread traveling.
Theres so much i wanna do.
I wanna go tanning.
I wanna gym more often.
I wanna attend zouk out.
I wanna get more calvin kleins.
I wanna get more earstuds.
I wanna eat ramen.
I wanna eat waraku. I wanna eat crystal Jade.
I wanna eat Pizza hut
I wanna travel the world.
I wanna comission.
I wanna earn big BIG BIG bucks.
Attended my fav soo cousin’s wedding ytd.
A pity shes a “soo” no more. =(
shes older than me by 4 yrs or so.
Doted on me since i was little.
And looking at her getting married,
was just heart warming.
I was so very happy for her marrying someone she loves.
I cant wait for her to mayb some day give birth to a child,
so i can dote on him/her like how she doted on me.
Grats cous.
May ur marriage be in bliss and harmony for all times.
Happy birthday Nic.
Happy birthday Junhan.
Sorry i attended neither of the gatherings cause of the wedding and i was really too tired to do anything else.
Platoon IC for the week, fuck.
And i just wanted to stay low thruout my ocs days.
Wish me luck.
I hope i dont screw up.
IPPTs on monday,
wish me luck, yet again.
Come Back To Me You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you’re becoming someone else
Don’t recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you
You say you’re leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i’m here
Whenever you need me
I’ll wait for you
So i’ll let you go
I’ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I’ll keep your things right where you left them
I’ll be here for you
Oh and i’ll let you go
I’ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
And i hope you find everything that you need
I’ll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me
I can’t get close if your not there
I can’t get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can’t fix you i can’t save you
Its something you have to do
So i’ll let you go
I’ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So i’ll let you go
I’ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
And i hope you find everything that you need
I’ll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
I wanna go Korea but i cant speak korean.
I wanna go HongKong but i cant speak canto.
I wanna go Bkk but i cant speak thai.
I wanna go Vietnam.
I wanna go Taiwan.
I wanna Travel and go all these places again
I’ve learnt to enjoy travelling.
Bookin is in 2hrs.
And before i knw it,
i just wasted another weekend.
Fuck.
Grow hair grow.
Grow body grow.
This is just one of the nights you wished u were drunk and high
and had a bike,
so u can drive down the expressway at 140km/h to and fro
for no apparent reason.
the term daryl used on me today,
to keep my “chin up” got me thinking
wat it actually means.
cause for my whole fighting career.
ive always been taught to keep my chin down.
its been 3 long mths since i last hit a bag.
i need to start fighting again.
i miss that ectasy-like adrenaline
my kicks and punches are getting rusty
plus, i need to set all these feelings free.
comments have been set to unable for emo posts.
cause sometimes, i just need to pen down my thoughts.
but at the end of the day, i knw i’ll be able to stand up.
because… i am strong.
i can and i will.
nar saranghanda go marhanten onjego
sorjighi na nega jar doenungo shirho
naboda yepun yojia manna hengboghage jar sarmyon otoge
nan irohge himdunde himduro juggenunde
norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
its still the same waking up every saturday morning.
A few months ago,
i would have felt happy reading everything.
i would have them placed proudily on my bunk.
Just to show off to the world.
A few months ago,
my board would have been fulled.
Filled.
It would have brought a smile to my face every morning,
just looking at it.
It would have motivated me.
It would have spurred me on.
It would have made me look forward to every bookout.
Hoping i’ll see u there.
It would have pushed me to do the best i can.
Just so i can tell u how well ive done over the week.
Just so u can be proud of me.
And so i can look at ur glimming face,
telling me im the best.
makign me feel on top of the world
even if im just one man.
with a hug, a kiss on the cheek and a
“goodbye i’ll see u in 5 days.”
was how i would have imagined it to be.
I would be stress, in a rush, packing my stuff.
But ull be right beside, helping in whatever way u can.
I’ll scream at u to get outta the way.
U’ll stay quietly aside.
I would aplogise in the car.
U would have said u understand.
You’ll come over every saturday morning,
and be the first thing my sleepy eyes open up to.
You’ll bring me griddles,
i’ll laze around and only end up
eating when it turns cold.
We’ll eat infront of the tv.
I’ll offer u a bite,
u would reject.
I would insist.
U would listen.
I’ll change the channel.
U’ll tell me u wanna watch something else.
I’ll let u.
We’ll stay around the house.
unless either of us could tihnk of something to do.
Playing silly pranks.
Acting childish.
Hiding and seeking.
With me more often than not, end up just disturbing u.
Dinner will come,
u’ll want to have it with my mum
We’ll head out.
She’ll like it.
she’ll like u, she always did.
i’ll be the decisive man when it comes to dinner.
wanting to eat my fav food, even if we just had it last week.
u 2 will just follow suite.
i’ll send u home.
depending on hw tired i am.
i would have just sent u to ur mrt,
or i would have sent u all the way.
U would be very happy if i did.
we’ll end up sitting at the playground below.
Singing under the stars.
Acting like lil jet skis.
Sometimes we’ll talk alot.
Sometimes we’ll not.
But with u on my lap.
Time for u to go back always seem faster than its suppose to be.
We’ll kiss goodbye.
and i’ll take my long trip back alone.
But before i reach the station.
Ur msg would have alr came in.
I wouldnt reply,
cause u knw i’ll be playing my psp.
but…
u’ll understand.
u always do.
and when the following week comes.
it’ll just be on repeat.
but still…
noones gonna complain.
This was never suppose to be an emo blog.
I never should have been typing this here.
I wasnt suppose to think about anything.
I was doin so well before.
This is delayed.
I need to refocus.
Ugly truth is a bad movie.
Dun watch it.
My walls was never to be opened to anyone else.
It shouldnt have.
Cause nw its just me to stay.
When im gone…
will u be there.
will u shed a tear.
will u stay beside.
will u finally tell me words i always wnted to hear.
will ur life change.
will ur light fade.
will u rmb whr we first met, how we met.
will u think about the could-haves.
will u have tried to prevent the mishap.
will u moan.
will u weep.
will u remember…
that i once lived.
Cause the One person i thought would never let me down, did.
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I’m letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!
You’ll always be a part of me
I’m a part of you indefinitely
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
I ain’t gonna cry no
And I won’t beg you to stay
If you’re determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you’ll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no
You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
I know that you’ll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you’ll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it’s only a matter of time
You’ll always be apart of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my my baby….
You’ll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I’m part of you indefinitely
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on (we will linger on….)
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
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